(c)Tuesday2006.  SHIT

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You know, its really sad that someone must weight about 90 pounds to be concidered attractive.
I feel really bad for the people that are like 190 or 290 or even bigger. I mean shit. This society is fucked up.I guess you can say I'm in one of those moods where I hate myself and everyone that makes it hard to feel good about myself. I don't understand how people can have so much confidence when they know the world doesn't view them as good enough. I think that might be my problem, but I don't think I will be able to get over it, and I am scared of what this does to me mentally. I have already given up so much to get what I want and I got nothing in return. I want to puke when I think about it all. I have started beating myself up about this and its ridiculous. I will be going to the gym every day at this rate and not eating anything but salad and drinking water, and when I kill my organs and my bones from malnutrition, it will be ok because I am beautiful in the eyes of a society that could careless if I lived or died. This is the way we live. Isn't it pathetic. I mean shit. If I wasn't good at makeup or hair and didn't have piercings or anything I would be hideous to the people I want to impress, and hell I still am even though I do have all of those things under my belt. I hate feeling like this. To top it all off I have to get clothes for work, and well that is not going to help me feel any fucking better. :/ Oh well. *shrug*

Now that I am finished with that.
I saw my first penis yesterday.
Well it was the first in the photo lab.
We got to tell some chick that she couldn't have her picture of it. haha.


I haven't had time in the past week to do crazy makeup, so these are boring.
Sorry guys. I don't know if my job will allow bright makeup or not.
I will find out eventually. Hopefully I can wear my bright makeup.
Until then here are these from before work or after work when I don't have any makeup on. haha.

I am also going to try to get some pictures today. We will see. I got a haircut. woohoo. :D

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(c)Tuesday2006.  SHIT


So, my birthday party was fun.
Minus the cops showing up and everyone being drunk, but apparently the cops didn't care. hah.
OH and everyone being loud as fuck when I was trying to sober up, because I was about to have a panic attack because of the cops showing up. lol.
Not to mention certain people breaking the rule of no fucking sex. Shit dude.
Here are the past three looks I've done. [The rainbow was from today. :) With my new awesome makeup. hah!]

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